Overthinking

By Blake Adamson

My mind races ahead
Questions, questions, questions
My mind races ahead
Tomorrow’s too soon, but too far away
My mind races ahead
Winding up my back, and tightening holds
My mind races ahead
Crying would be nice, but my eyes are dry
My mind races ahead
The problems pile up, with unread books and unchecked lists
My mind races ahead
Worry nests in my chest, scratches down my throat
My mind races ahead
Just below my heart, there’s a dark and dense spot
My mind races ahead
The knots in my stomach coil, hiss and block the way
My mind races ahead
It’s hard to breathe, it’s hard to think
My mind races ahead
Pills meant to help don’t, sleep doesn’t come
My mind races ahead
All it takes is a little bad news, a little change of plans
My mind races ahead
The happy thoughts vacate, and peace of mind’s in pieces
My mind races ahead
I need a way to vent, I need a way to settle
My mind races ahead
I pull out a blank sheet, and hope relief comes
My mind races ahead
I type the first line, with words that run and rerun
My mind races ahead

Copyright © 2020 by Blake Adamson Blake Adamson is an aspiring writer who has written for fanzine blogs and maintains fandom-related blogs on both Tumblr and Archive of Our Own. He currently lives in Jefferson City, Missouri, with his family while trying to complete a novel or novella-length story, a feat which he compares to passing kidney stones.