(aka motomynd)
It was a quiet Sunday night at home, the winding-down of a great weekend. We had finished the house projects on our list, enjoyed a wonderful three-mile Sunday-afternoon walk/run along the shore of our favorite local lake, and were settling in for a quiet dinner.
And not just any dinner! This was our post-hike family-tradition greatest-dinner-ever: a vegan, gluten-free, Mediterranean style Daiya frozen pizza, to which we added extra mushrooms, olives, and pineapple before cooking it absolutely perfectly in our air-fryer pizza oven. It isn’t often we have a perfect weekend and get to top it off with the perfect meal, but this weekend we achieved the near impossible.
As I finished cooking the pizza and cut it into absolutely equal thirds under the very intense watchfulness of our seven-year-old son, my wife was flipping through photos on her phone. Her niece had just moved into her first-ever apartment, and had seen snow for maybe the third time in her life – she grew up in Houston, Texas – so we were being treated to a wide variety of indoor and outdoor images.
One photo stood out from the others. It was a warmly lit, softly snowy cemetery scene, sort of a cross between a Norman Rockwell and a Currier & Ives, with the warm light of sunset melding perfectly with the neo-antique gas lights illuminating the tombstones and stone walkways. It was truly a stunning and inviting image. Yet, as I studied it I felt a cold chill creep over me: in seconds I went from enjoying the warmth of our kitchen to feeling like I had entered a walk-in freezer.
What on earth?
My wife looked up from her phone, took a quick glance my way, and said “Are you okay? You look like you are about to pass out.”
“Not sure,” I muttered, as I staggered toward our living room, heading for the sofa.
“Did you sugar crash?” my wife asked. “Are you dizzy? Are you having a seizure?”
“Don’t think so,” I said. “Could you ask your niece if she knows anything about that cemetery?”
“What? Don’t we need to be worrying about whatever is going on with you?”
“Just ask her. Okay?”
After a flurry of texts, my wife said, “She thinks some serial killer is buried there.”
“Can you ask her if it is Henry Lee Lucas?”
My wife, totally perplexed at this stage, said, “Do I need to dial 9-1-1?”
“No. Just ask your niece. Will you?”
A few moments later my wife walked back into the living room. It was her turn to look a bit shaken. “Yes, his name is Henry Lee Lucas,” she said. “How could you possibly know the name of a serial killer buried in some random cemetery in Texas?”
The answer to that question goes back 45 years, and to this day I still don’t know what to make of it.
I grew up in Southwest Virginia, graduated high school, did a couple of years of community college, and then went to Virginia Tech, in Blacksburg, Virginia. Today Virginia Tech is a big name in academics and national-level athletics; back then it was a pretentious wasteland of high ambitions but few results. Two years before I arrived at Tech, their big-talking but delusional head football coach scheduled a game against perennial national power Alabama. The Crimson Tide crushed Tech 77-6, rushed for 743 yards, scored on 10 of 14 possessions, and never punted. That about sums up the talk versus the reality of Virginia Tech sports in that era.
I had wrecked a knee in middle school and was unable to pass a physical to participate in high-school sports. Probably just as well, since I was all of 5-feet, 7-inches tall and weighed 150 pounds, but at the time I knew – just absolutely, positively knew – I could hold my own, if I could just get on the field. By the time I got to Tech I was training like a madman, had a 32-inch waist and a 42-inch chest, had bulked up to 170 pounds, and could bench press almost twice my bodyweight. Take that you 6-foot, 4-inch, 225-pound jocks: I will show you what a lower center of gravity can do.
Emboldened by strength and speed I had never before experienced, I was ready to give any and all college sports a try. I decided that my junior year at Tech would be the junior year I should have had in high school, when my gutsy but hopelessly over-matched team lost the state football championship in a game memorialized in the movie Remember the Titans.
If there was ever a perfect fit for a 20-year-old with delusions of athletic prowess, the delusional athletics scene of Virginia Tech was it. But even there, the plan quickly fell apart. I learned the hard way that fitness and a lower center of gravity take you only so far, there is also the matter of learned techniques. You just can’t miss seven years of sports and step right in and compete with people who have been actually honing their skills while you dreamed of honing yours, especially when those people are bigger and sometimes faster.
Dreams of team sports dashed, I retreated back to the world of the solo sports that had helped me survive high school: boxing, martial arts, archery, that sort of thing. And I discovered an “underground” bare-knuckle fight circuit where I could make some money while working out my frustrations. It was probably a match made in hell, but it felt like heaven. Why? Because I always won, hardly ever got hit hard, and I became a known and talked-about entity – a celebrity of sorts. I had finally found a sport I was actually fairly good at, so what if it was secretive and probably illegal?
There is a certain thrill that comes with knowing people are targeting you, planning to take you down, and knowing they will fail. This is probably what the great athletes feel when they claim their championships in front of throngs of adoring fans. It may be what a lion, or a bear, feels when it wins a fight to claim its own turf. I never actually felt that way about myself, because I knew I had a dirty secret of an advantage: by age 20, I could break a brick with either hand, and I had some rudimentary boxing training.
When a 170-pound refrigerator with a head unloads an uppercut that can break a brick into an opponent’s ribs, that fight is pretty much over. It may occasionally take a second punch, but not often. No need to hit someone in the head and risk seriously hurting them, no gangland style beatdowns with lots of blood and gore and black eyes and all that: just move around a bit, dodge a few wild punches, and launch that uppercut. When your opponent is curled on the floor in a fetal position, screaming in agony and pissing all over himself from the punch he just took, that fight is over: no need for a referee because there is no need to count him out. Which was a good thing because we didn’t have referees and ring-side assistants and all that; when you went into that warehouse on a Saturday night, or a dark parking lot at 3 a.m., you were on your own. We didn’t even have ring girls, which was a real tragedy.
As happens in life, as you get better at something, you inevitably get moved up and have to take on tougher competition. I slowly noticed I was fighting other guys who could also dance around and dodge punches just about forever, so I decided to work on my cardio capability: the longer you can bob and weave and run and dodge, the more tired the other guy gets, and the more effective it makes that one big punch – a big punch it was now taking several rounds to land, instead of a few minutes.
And so I fell in love with long bike rides. Anywhere I could ride instead of drive, that’s what I did, which was a good thing since I was a broke college kid with a 1968 Renault R8 that I had assembled from parts of two cars. The transaxle was held on by U-bolts that would probably be illegal to mount wheels on a propane grill today, but I drove that beast nearly 70,000 miles. The transaxle made an ominous whine when I first put the car together and it was still making the same whine when the floorboard finally rusted out and some important stuff – including the gear shift handle – disappeared. You can only drive so far permanently mired in second gear, even in what had turned out to be an incredibly tough Renault.
The best bike rides were at night, under a bright full moon, and since there was little traffic back then, they were generally safe. But there was one section of road that gave me the creeps, day or night. On a hot summer afternoon, or a chilly moonlit autumn evening, I felt like I was freezing inside whenever I pedaled through that area. I dismissed it as exertion, or maybe impending dehydration, and tried to ignore it as no big deal. It was on a steep climb back toward town, up past what locals called “the old cheese factory,” and if I hit that steep pitch after an 80-mile ride (as in when I rode back from visiting my family, who lived 40 miles away) I could almost walk as fast as I could pedal.
One night, under a brilliant full moon, taking that climb at a snail’s pace and feeling my whole being freezing with the same strange dread I always felt when riding through there, I heard a yell from my left. It was a man running out of his gravel driveway, swinging an axe, and screaming he was going to kill me. What the hell?
Knowing I couldn’t outrun anyone in my cycling shoes, I jumped off the right side of my bike and was still trying to formulate a plan when the man closed on me with his axe raised. For lack of a better strategy I shoved my bike at him, which he tripped over and went sprawling, dropping his axe in the process. As he tried to get up, I grabbed him by the hair and punched him in the neck. He went limp, so I grabbed his axe, threw it into the woods on the opposite side of the road, and pondered options.
No cell phones back then, and no traffic, so I had a problem. When he started moving a bit, I again grabbed him by the hair, sort of half-dragged and half-walked him out of the road and back into his driveway, and then punched him again in the neck. Twice. He collapsed onto the gravel and I figured he would be there a while, so I continued my ride.
Coming into town, I spotted a police car parked at a convenience store. I walked in, saw an officer in uniform, and said, “Some lunatic just tried to attack me with an axe as I was riding up by the old cheese factory.”
I was expecting excitement, assistance, maybe some headlines.
The cop looked at me. “Was that the other side of the apartments, or between here and the apartments?”
“The other side, near the old cheese factory, like I said.”
“Hmmm…that’s in the county. Out of my jurisdiction. You will have to report it to them.”
“Can you do that?”
“What’s to report? He’s probably gone by now. Where did you last see him?”
“He tripped over my bike trying to take a swing at me with the axe. He was still lying in his driveway when I left.”
“Where’s the axe?”
“I threw it into the woods, on the opposite side of the road from his driveway.”
“Good idea. But I doubt anyone could find it in the dark. So even if I get them to go out there, we have no weapon and probably no attacker. I will let them know and maybe they will look into it tomorrow. Glad you weren’t hurt. I have to get back to my patrol.”
And that was it. No police report, no investigation, and as I pedaled home I realized he hadn’t even asked for my name. Apparently being attacked by someone with an axe didn’t count for much, unless a victim was actually killed in the attack.
The next day I mentioned the incident to a guy I worked out with. His dad owned a service station, a garage, and a bunch of rental properties, so if he asked the cops to look into something, they would actually do it.
Henry Lee Lucas |
“He tried to attack me with an axe. That’s harmless?”
“You know what I mean. He got sentenced for some petty crimes and craziness and just got out of jail and moved back here. His cousin lives out that gravel driveway. Henry Lee is probably staying with him, but he won’t be around long. He always gets caught and sent away again. I wouldn’t worry about him.”
Lucas with his friend, serial killer Ottis Toole |
For the next few years, Lucas drifted around West Virginia and his former home area near Blacksburg – the era I had my encounter with him; again, if it was indeed him. When your only interaction with someone is punching them in the neck a few times in the dark, it’s difficult to make an exact identification. The guy looked and certainly acted the part, but Lucas wasn’t the only crazy redneck living in that area. Yet that strange cold chill will always make me wonder.
After college the bike rides ended, as did the trips to Blacksburg, and I forgot all about Henry Lee Lucas.
A few years later I was assigned to do a newspaper article on a local fisherman and hunter of note. I couldn’t find my notes from that era, but his name was Jerry, as I recall, and I went to his house to photograph some of the record-class fish he had caught and had mounted on his trophy wall. Trophy rooms sort of creep me out, so when I started to feel that strange cold chill as I walked into the room, I tried to dismiss it as the impact of all the vacantly staring glass eyes, but it seemed more vivid than that.
Along a wall of newspaper clippings about Jerry’s fishing successes, I spotted it: A clipping with a photo of Henry Lee Lucas.
Frozen in place, I said, “I have to ask. Why do you have a photo of Henry Lee Lucas on your wall?”
“Because the SOB killed my dog and stole a bunch of my guns before he went on his killing spree. I saw him sitting in his truck down the road when I went to work that morning, and something told me I should go home and guard the place. Wish I had. How do you know about him?”
And so I recounted my possible encounter from a decade earlier.
“Sounds like him,” Jerry said. “You should have left him in the road, maybe someone would have run over him and killed him.”
Again thanks to Wikipedia, I can see Lucas had been a very, very busy guy in the years I had forgotten about him. Depending on which version of various articles or police reports you might choose to believe, he killed somewhere between 10 and 100 people during that era. And he allegedly helped a partner in crime kill 10 to 100 more. Lucas was ultimately convicted of murdering 11 people and sentenced to death for one of the murders, but then Texas Governor George W. Bush commuted his sentence to life imprisonment in 1998.
Lucas as a child (He lost an eye to infection after a fight with his brother.) |
Lucas died in prison from congestive heart failure in 2001; he was 64 years old. His remains are buried in a cemetery near where my wife’s niece now lives in her new apartment.
There are very few events that have happened in my life that I can’t sit down and rationally and coherently sort them out. Why I always had that feeling of cold and dread when riding by “the old cheese factory” was mystery enough, but how a digital image sent through my wife’s phone tapped into that 45 years later, is beyond my ability to comprehend. Or was it all a coincidence? Did the steep climb at the end of a long ride push my fitness to the breaking point, and did a sugar crash throw me off mentally while I was waiting to eat pizza?
You will have to make of it what you will, because I am still trying to sort it out myself.
There are very few events that have happened in my life that I can’t sit down and rationally and coherently sort them out. Why I always had that feeling of cold and dread when riding by “the old cheese factory” was mystery enough, but how a digital image sent through my wife’s phone tapped into that 45 years later, is beyond my ability to comprehend. Or was it all a coincidence? Did the steep climb at the end of a long ride push my fitness to the breaking point, and did a sugar crash throw me off mentally while I was waiting to eat pizza?
You will have to make of it what you will, because I am still trying to sort it out myself.
Copyright © 2021 by Paul Clark |
I'm reminded of the old question: Would you have killed Hitler if you had the chance? Great story Paul. Myself, I always listen to those feeling, if not I wouldn't be here today.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Ed. At the risk of launching one of those discussions that is not unlike trying to find the end of a circle, I have to say that for me your "old" question begets another old question: How do you know someone will become the Hitler the world came to know, before he becomes the infamous Hitler the world came to know? And if you kill Hitler after he has become infamous, and has set his plan in motion, does it make any difference?
ReplyDeleteTrust your gut, man. It's saved my tail more than once! This supports my personal belief that, God, gods, spirits, SOMETHING beyond what we call normal, (I prefer "meta-normal" to "supernormal") and not some bearded Skydaddy either (what drivel), operates on a different frequency than our regular senses can perceive. My wife has this ability to an uncanny degree; she spotted a man once walking across a bridge at least 200 yards away, a Rasta man in an island full of Rasta men, and said "I don't like that man." I could barely see him! 5 minutes later we heard him trying to break the windows on our rental car, as my buddy and I sprinted to stop him, only to see him disappear "upso", practically straight up the mountain, where we flatlanders had no chance at all of catching him. BTW hope you used the "Phoenix fist" on the bastard's neck, I'd have paid money to see that!
ReplyDeleteRoger, is your wife able to call up her "power" on demand, or does it just come over her as a "hunch" when her mind is elsewhere? I used to do freelance security work, and although I never had the knack for knowing who was the suspicious character out do harm, I often wound up standing next to them when they tried to launch whatever action: it would be great to be able to know what was going to happen before it started happening, but I never had that gift.
ReplyDeletePhoenix fist? I will have to research that one. When I first started working with what later became universally known as martial arts - we jokingly called it country boy karate - Bruce Lee was "famous" only for his role as Kato in the 'Green Hornet' TV series. We were sort of pioneers in the hinterlands of early martial arts. To toughen our hands we would wrap boards in burlap and beat on them such as we could stand the pain; I still remember the first time I broke one of the boards, by accident, and everyone froze: we had no clue you could hit hard enough to do such a thing. And yet, within four years, we were breaking bricks. Just shows that if you take a really crazy idea and stick with it, crazy things can happen.
Wow,
ReplyDeleteThis is surely the most incredible stories I've ever heard. Paul clearly has an extraordinary ability to sense danger and evil. Whether it is dangerous people or animals somehow he winds up next to them. He calls them out. Attracts them.
I bet when we all lived on the African Plains with no weapons but our hands and a stone, many of us had these psychic survival skills.
My wife often knows who is calling before she picks up the phone. 20 years ago we were awakened in the middle of the night in Maine, by an Owl screeching loudly outside our window. We had never heard this before.
My wife sat up in bed and said "Michelle died." Indeed, we learned the next morning that our friend had died the night before.
I think we have to believe that some of us have extraordinary subconscious abilities. This does not work consciously from my experience.
How interesting. There was a superstition in Shakespeare's day (I only know this because we just finished Macbeth again) that the hooting of the owl portended death.
DeleteNeil,
DeleteYour wife's ability to foresee is as amazing as anything I've ever heard. Many people make claims about having such abilities, but to clearly document it, as you have with your wife, puts it on a whole different level.
Kyle, my wife was aware of that. But this was a powerful feeling. Her family was from the West of Ireland (Tuam in County Galway) and we are all aware of Yeats’ stories of the other world.
Delete“There are more things on heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamed of in your philosophy.” Hamlet
DeleteInteresting stuff. Malcom Gladwell has a book called Blink which talks about intuition and going with your gut. Interesting read. If my wife has a hunch, I usually go with it. Feels like women have a better ability to read a situation.
ReplyDeleteJoe, If 'Blink' is as good as Gladwell's 'Outliers' book, it must indeed be an interesting read. I would agree that most women have a better ability to read a situation, which makes it especially perplexing trying to sort out how so many women are lured into exploitive relationships.
DeleteWhat an interesting conversation. Have you ever read The Screwtape Letters, by C.S. Lewis? I think you'd find it an intriguing read if you're interested in topics like this one. The psychology in it has been noted by many as some of the best of its time even by Lewis's most critical readers.
ReplyDeleteYes! I loved Lewis’s Screwtape Letters!
DeleteKyle & Moristotle,
DeleteI have never heard of the 'Screwtape Letters' but given such recommendations, I will check it out.
The owl is a symbol of death for many Native American tribes, and also a symbol of the power to predict the future. Some tribes believed that wearing owl feathers could help ward off evil spirits.
Paul, Cindy just seems to get hunches, it strikes like lightning, just like that incident I mentioned. Yet when presented with a person she cannot turn it off. The past 8 staff I have hired sat through interviews with her present, and if she nixes tham it's by-by time. She told me one guy I'd hired didn't pass her test and he turned out to be a doper and a thief. She visited Saratoga Battlefield with her dad at 8 years old and asked him didn't he feel the dead people? One guy on the road in the Keys scared he so bad she ran for the truck with our son, and this clown jumped in the back and demanded a ride "just across the bridge" (lots of bridges in the FL Keys) and I had to drag him out and pummel his ass to get rid of him. Yet later, same trip, a young Hispanic fella caught a ride with us, right out of jail, and she said he was OK. We ended up giving him the last of our camping food and he looked at our toddler and said "Don't let him turn out like me." I must have this ability to some extent; years ago we went to Little Bighorn and couldn't even set a foot on the ground there. We drove around the parking lot, and it was as if we heard screaming and wailing right out of the ground. We drove right back out and never looked back.
ReplyDeleteRoger, with your combined abilities, have you ever considered you and Cindy just getting in a vehicle and taking off to see where you happen to go - and writing a book about it? You would have to shoot video too, of course, to verify the events, or people would probably think you were writing fiction.
DeleteAbout Little Bighorn: I lack your senses, but I stopped there on a trip to Alaska and found the place unnerving. It was a picture-perfect western "big sky" day, 120 years after the battle, but only four days before the date of the commemoration of the battle, so maybe the spirits were more active than usual. As I walked around, soaking in the scenery and the magnitude, I had one clear image develop: a Native American, standing on the ridge near my vantage point, looking down on where the battle was to unfold, and thinking "what a great day to kill a bunch of arrogant white people."
The "Pheonix fist" is what one of my Shotokan senseis called the tight-balled fist with the second knuckle of the index finger extended and the thumb tucked in behind, a Wing Chun tactic. I can no longer do it with my arthritis, if I had to fight these days I'd be better off with a baseball bat...
ReplyDeleteRoger, prompted by your comments, I did some research and found "Phoenix eye fist" - is that the 'Phoenix fist" to which you are referring? Such a technique is beyond anything I ever studied and I am baffled as to how the "Phoenix fist" would be effective for anything other than strikes to soft tissue. To me it would seem a recipe for repeated finger injuries every time you hit a bone: I have to wonder if using such a technique might have contributed to your arthritis?
DeleteThat said, I never studied under any "eastern" martial arts experts, so I may have missed some subtleties. The essence of our training was maximum power from the shortest stroke with the least probability of dislocating or breaking a finger, so we played it safe and simply tried to add point-of-impact power to what were originally boxing techniques. Some of the most effective methods I witnessed were learning to miss with a punch so you could land an elbow, and a lot of what would today be called "arm bar" techniques.
I'm with you on the baseball bat. For home defense most people would be far better off with pepper spray and a baseball bat than with a handgun.