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[Sequel to "Act 1"]
The American woodcock meanders as it migrates, and it travels less in a year than an Arctic tern does in a week, yet it is still one of my favorite birds. There is something about a bird designed for the shore choosing to live in a forest, and its overall charmingly quirky behavior, that endears it to me. There is a bittersweet attraction as well.
I was a child making my first trip from my birth state of Virginia to Upstate New York when I first met the woodcock. Upstate is the place I should have grown up, if only my parents hadn’t fled south before I was born, as they sought better jobs and to get away from winter. We were visiting Carl and Emma—the couple who would become my favorite aunt and uncle and who were like grandparents to me—when I heard a strange sound coming from the boggy woodland that separated their backyard from Lake Ontario. The call was an insect’s buzz, followed by a bird’s chirp, and then a strange whistling. Creeping along a blueberry hedge I found myself standing in awe at the edge of the darkening forest as the sounds repeated over and over. They were followed by the bizarre, moth-like, fluttering flight of a bird the size of the Bobwhite quail I was used to back in Virginia. It would launch out of its hiding place in the short sedge, fly in a high arcing spiral, then return to a spot only a few feet from me. Then it would do it again. And again.
“What on earth?” I asked my uncle Carl. “A timberdoodle,” he answered. I stared, thinking it a joke. “A woodcock,” he clarified. We looked it up in his bird book. “What do they mean when they say it is doing a mating flight?” I asked. “Uhmmm…well…it is just something they do to let other birds know they are good…fliers,” he replied. It seemed a stretch, but I let it go.
A decade later the trail of the timberdoodle took me to the Tug Hill Plateau, to a camp—they call them cabins here in the Southeast—that had been in the family more than 50 years. Carl was by then more grandfather than uncle, in age and attitude, filling the gap created because my real grandfather—his father—died at that camp before I was born, victim of a careless deer hunter.
We went there in the spring to fly fish for native brook trout, and in the early fall to hunt woodcock over spaniels. The fly fishing was a passion for me—I graduated from spin-casting gear by age 10 and began tying my own flies by age 12—and I loved stalking the colorful trout in the crystal streamlets that came to life on “the hill” then tumbled down slope and became huge rivers when they reached the valleys below. The woodcock hunting was an excuse to spend time with the ghost of my grandfather in the crisp yet wonderful autumn weather that preceded the brutal conditions that often arrived with deer season. Tug Hill averages more than 20 feet of snow each winter, and one hamlet received 39-feet one winter in the 1970s, so the term brutal is not an overstatement.
Three decades later I saw Carl shoot his last woodcock. Just before sunset, Griz, the yellow Labrador retriever that succeeded Charley, his last beautiful, black spaniel, flushed it out of the same boggy cover behind the house where I saw my first woodcock. It flew strongly away from us, instinctively twisting left and right as it fled through a wild tangle of vines and trees. Just as it seemed impossibly far away and was about to disappear into even deeper cover, Carl’s shotgun barked and the bird crumpled in full flight. It was the greatest wing shot I ever saw, especially for a 90-year-old man shouldering the same gun his father was carrying when he was killed 70 years earlier.
The footing and cold were too risky for Carl, so Griz and I waded into the icy waters of the swamp. After several minutes we finally found the bird. For some reasons I spread its wings and held it in the last rays of sunlight, studying it closely before we plucked it, dressed it, and cooked it on a wooden spit over the small fire pit in the backyard.
The little bird was a marker for four decades of my life, covering the evolution from child to what we politely call middle age, and I savored all 40 of those years as we sat there in the cold having a couple of shots of Laphroaig Scotch, with the chill autumn wind biting at us, an early season touch of the Northern Lights playing faintly above, and the coyotes calling as they hunted along the dark shore of the lake. Over the years I had made more than 150 trips to get to know the place and the people I should have grown up with—I made a point to burn every memorable experience deeply into my brain, especially moments like that. It was almost like being back on Tug Hill, even if we were less than 50 yards from the house. Since “the hill” was more than Carl could tackle at his age, it was good enough.
Driving back to Virginia the next day I couldn’t help but wonder how many more years we would repeat such rituals.
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Act 1 published February 2; Act 3 coming April 6.
Copyright © 2013 by motomynd
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Motomynd, I couldn't even BEGIN to write a piece like this. I just don't have ANYWHERE NEAR the feeling connection to my past that you do to yours.
ReplyDeleteI hope others will comment on this point.
Morris, that is a surprising comment, especially considering your interest in thought and reflection as shown in your blog. There is an old saying to the effect that if we don't know where we have been, we may not have much success figuring out where we are going. For some reason I have always taken that to heart, not only in taking the pulse of my own life as objectively and accurately as possible as the years pass, but in learning all I can about my ancestry as well.
DeleteFar too many people seem to live as if they plan to get things right and get all they can out of their next life; I have never understood the logic of that.
Motomynd, it may have surprised me a bit, too. But note that I said FEELING connection, and you refer to my THOUGHT and REFLECTION....
DeleteI think that I do now, though, spend more time in the same way you do "taking the pulse of my own life." It may be the effect of aging and the stronger awareness of my mortality. You seem to have "been blessed" with a strong impulse to do it without such an impetus—unless mortality-awareness has ever been strong for you?
I am glad to confirm that I have not wasted any time planning for my next life. Not lately anyway—after dumping the fantasy that there will be one.
Mortality-awareness and its impact on how people think and live is an interesting point to ponder. Considering that some people live seemingly oblivious to the value and brevity of life even after encountering tragedy and loss at an early age, and others highly value life from the beginning, I'm skeptical that mortality-awareness if the driving force it is generally thought to be.
DeleteSo there is no confusion, my point wasn't that many people tend to squander their lives preparing for an after-life, it is that they seem to think they have some sort of next life here they can get right. If people are true believers of whatever kind, and they choose to live life on earth a certain way because they think it will impact an after-life somewhere else after they die, I think most of us understand that - even if we may not believe the same. What baffles me is how people go through life planning that "tomorrow" they will start eating healthier, or exercising more, or spending more time with people special to them, but they never get to it.
Living by following a code based in an after-life may seem dubious to some, but at least it is a plan. Living without any plan other than procrastination just seems pathetic.
Well, Motomynd, I have no idea how extensive mortality-awareness may or may not be. I was just saying that it may be a factor in my own case and speculated whether it were in yours. I do know that my compassion for others and for other animals is VERY cognizant of the brevity of the life of all of us. And my appreciation for my wife has grown as I see her grow old and I become more and more aware that she and I won't be around that much longer.
DeleteI DID misunderstand you if you didn't mean "their next life" as a reference to their AFTERlife. No, I don't plan to get things right TOMORROW; I am continually dedicated to that in the present moment.
I THINK we're on the same page here.
We may very well be on the same page. Unfortunately there are hordes of people seemingly stumbling through life without thinking ahead, prioritizing or committing to any sort of recognizable plan, who act is if they could figuratively be from another planet - to the point that I often wish they were literally on another planet.
DeleteBefore anyone gets started with the "people have a right to live as they wish" rhetoric, let me ask "but don't they have an obligation to at least be a bit aware and not constantly get in the way of the rest of us trying to live as we wish?"
You are a wonderful painter, moto. I'm sure it is a picture, which will stay with me for a long time. Thank you for sharing that time in your uncle's life with us
ReplyDeleteKonotahe, coming from a wordsmith such as yourself, that means much. Thank you for the kind words.
DeleteWell-written indeed, Moto. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteChuck, thank you! Strange background for a vegan eco-activist, eh?
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